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Rusty...

2009-09-08T21:48:00.000-07:00

Looking back on the first half on this year. Sooo much has happened. Ignorant blog entries cursing the world are Spllllatted all over this page. I must admit I really hated the world once. Now, i just shut up and stay in it. For the fact that i have someone special in this world for me. I owe her to this.

Alas! I'm free.

If it isnt about sitting in a good ol rocking chair and going back and forth over and over again. Enjoying the joy in such simplicity.

Its like playing a game of solitaire on ur desktop and just marvelling in the simplest of things.

It was all forgotten when I stood between the world and this. I facade on the oncomings and forgot the outgoings. I was product without process. How sad life can be...

But nevertheless, now, I looked upon everything as if it was her. Perfect, simple, joy. Its as if im back to where i started but this time round, im making sure i enjoy every minute of that process with her.

I love her.

insanity

2009-06-19T04:57:00.000-07:00

insanity is a word with many meanings. medically, and intermittently. my dad is insane. medically. and i am insane intermittently.
whats keeping me sane?
Her.
Her messages always gave me hope. her smile just lights me up all the time. we have been together for almost 1 1/2 years already and our love candle is still alight and shining bright.
she astounded me with so much love she has given me. i dont think anyone cud have that capability to love me that much as she does. im really touched.

i have one more sem to go before i have endless time with her. i really cant wait. i pray and hope that this coming four months will whizz by.

-cross fingers-
AND i hope that we will get to spend overnights with each other again. =D
I ADORE them.

I hope i can hold of the insanity in the mean time. heh.

2008-10-28T22:59:00.000-07:00

We been thru the ordeals that none can ever compare.

What i can't comprehend, i ask of too much.

I'm simple by thought. Complex in thoughts.

That's harder to comprehend.

What't making it simple is the fact that i love her alot. more than anyone will. a BIG ARSE of me to make such huge proclaim. But im not doubting thats why im screaming it aloud.

I hate whats all this thats tumbling me in my way, but it is something that we have to grasp about life. you can't mingle in a straight flat path, there are bound to be lil pebbles or a huge arse rock right smack in the middle of it. if u dont watch for it, u'll trip. but if u stop putting ur nose in the air, a lil humbleness wud put u at a safety margin. for one thing, u wont fall.

i learnt that in these few days.

Im happy. I know I am.

Shes bringin it all to me.

I dont want to comprehend.
I just want her.

(comprehend is too hard basket)

For her:
Love, I love u for who u are.
and what that brings with u, i willingly take it all.
I came into this knowing, that i love you wholeheartedly.
And no matter what, the heart wud stay whole for u.
Im sorry for all I've said.
You are the best that i can ever have.
The Best. =)

2008-10-27T19:51:00.000-07:00

dear, i wasn't studying as i had said when u called. i hope u like this. its a lil movie i made and after all we have been through, its time our story came out in print. =)

and what we have started will not come to an end.

memories are what we hold the closest to our heart. That is how i lived with every moment that i can't be with you. =)

This is yet another pledge of my genuine love for you. Enjoy, dear!

loving u always,

your one love,

Tendy

2008-10-09T03:55:00.000-07:00

no wait, seriously, am i humping?
DISH the dirt.

Oh wait!

HUMPS!

I own them.

LoveInTheMidstOfGreenMUCk.
In Love with RED.
PicturesNeverFade.Not OUrS

Phrase of the day: Its too hard basket

CountingDownThe days of Deprivation.

Hey,punehead.Risotto's a rice dish. just as carcinogenic is cancerous.OfCourseif u are dumbEnuff,putTHem together.

2008-09-29T08:13:00.000-07:00

Adore her smile
Adore her hair
Adore her burps.
Adoration of all that is hers.

whats new.

im lightyears away.

but

an hour from being gay.

loves red.
always
=)

2008-08-25T23:55:00.000-07:00

The magic wonders of life and its bittersweet.its a symphony. a bittersweet symphony. it plays the chords of pain, happiness, the grim, the ugly. My symphony has been played at its happiest during this period.
Occasional songs of pain passes but never lingered. Tampered in my memories are sweet symphonies of love.
A tamperment worth the cost. the cost of love.
devastation made lost with brilliance of the red flowers. Bloomed in the nights of day. Green lights flickering, but never burned out.
Words are just an entity.
Actions are subjective.
Colours are my life.

love thee red flowers.
love thy her.
love by her.

Blogged

2008-08-11T23:43:00.000-07:00

Cries in the lonely nights. where supported by her voice, I yearn to hold her in my arms all night long. Her smiles caught me, and i grin. Yes, my life has only her. and her alone. Im satisfied.
Crimison strucks out in the dark skies when i see her.
I can't live without thee.

Only 2 weeks have passed, and it feels like years of pain. And to her, the pain of nostalgia reeks in the air. I empathise with her. I noe her pain. I hear her cries. but i could do nothing, but dial a number. I feel for her. I want her so much.

Probably more than anything in this world. Its suffice to have her. I need no more. Days are dragging, and i wish it would pace up.I can hold this breath and bring this history of our love to my darkest corners of the earth.

My pink epitome.She fits me. And im the antibody. We seek for the specifics. and we got it.

Love is the strangest word. But a word worth living.
She taught me to spell that.

forever indulging in her love.

T.J. 30.12.2007

2008-05-31T07:02:00.000-07:00

Its nearly midnite on this quiet end im at. the streets lay barren. the lights are all out. im sitting measly in my room at the corner of the hall, happy. in comfort. i love my lil corners.its private and its quiet.plus the fact that i get good reception at certain corners of my room. its almost 2weeks til i fly home. i wont be in my lil corner for sometime. i dont mind. in fact, the corner's making me dread evrything in life. needless to say, i have her*. she never fails to brighten up my darkest corners. Anyway, my baby had a wisdom tooth op yesterday. not hearing frm her for 4hours were the most painful moments of my life. especially when shes in it for a surgery as such. i was really scared that day.i had my eyes pinned on the com (the com had the times in sgp format) i calculated the duration of her* being in sedation and the time she shes out of it. i panicked. when i didn hear frm her after 3 hours. paranoia, a random, not congenitally attained, but bit of an arse, kinda disease. whats not to hate about it, it makes people imagine the worst. when it never happens. how devious!

My love did wonderful for the op. i am so proud of her. she did it without me by her side. my brave lil one. i love her all so much. she hurts still, and so does my heart. but i guess it shows the intensity of my love for her.its like the kidneys, u need to get an affect to produce and effect. not that it is of any relation or what so ever. but yeh. kidneys.heh.

anyway, i did quite a good bit of studying today, as my love went about sorting her fone issues. she finally worked out a good fone. for which im so excited for her in getting it! wheeees. its got a darn good cam, more pics to come. ahoy! well, needless to say, i am still happily married to her*. it has been the utmost pleasant 5mths that i have ever had. she has brought nothing but only joy to me.

Happy 5th Month, LOVE!

May we have many more 5th months to go.. -grins-

you are
the light of my life.
the boils of happiness
the air that i breathe
the everything that i own
i am REALLY nothing without u.

Im SO in LOVE WITH YOU.

2008-05-14T20:18:00.000-07:00

15th May 2008

Its almost a month till im due home. 4 weeks to be exact. Im talkin to *her as i type this. Im so dreading here. Its cold and boring. -yawns- its not my lifestyle. Whats all that hype about overseas and australia? its not all good or anything along the lines. but i guess u kinda grow all independent away from home. And yes, if you do have a cherished one. it grows along too. LDR isnt all that painful. As the saying goes, absence makes one's heart grow fonder. In respective to mine. -smiles-

I feel that i have learnt so much when im here. I guess the lessons you get from being home is not as much as what u get here. But ultimately can we make a choice if here are we to stay or home we shud be? Personally? i pick the latter. It speaks on its own. I have *her and i love *her ever so much. If ever the need to come here, i would want her to come with me. But that's another story.

Anyway, being away from home makes u appreciate things@ home so much. i reckon you wudnt get it unless you take distance into consideration. Its a price to pay, being away from home. But if it is to be paid, why not make the best out of it. Even if it stinks!

Baby, im happy to have known you for this long. we have came a long way to get to where we are. Let us not ever forgo it. We are created, to find one another and to love each other. Let us commit ourselves into this beautiful piece. And to fall in love with one another every single day. I Love You, my sweetest sugar.

See Ya soon my love.
4 more weeks to go! -grins-

Fryday

2008-05-02T00:09:00.000-07:00

This morning, i woke up pretty early for class.and i got a text frm my baby. she didnt sleep well. i got worried and flustered (as usual..). shes really my one and only. anyway, got round to brekie. had another round of smoke spewing. friggin cold arse shit. and headed of for class till 11am. was nodding off for the first two hours.the guy was just strayin off module (yep, clearly he isnt the lecturer for that subject!) and had lunch rite about 11.30. got a text from my gorgeous gal soon after. her lil after-sleep starters are just awesome and my most needed medical remedy to a start of the day. went to the post and got another mail frm her (mind u, my fren got jealous seeing me gettin all the mail . -grins- im happy.shes been nothing, but great.) anyway, got off to horse pract at 2ish. that lasted till about 4ish. and am now rite back in my hall awaiting the presence of my princess. gosh, how i miss her so much.

Love, fear not.
I will never leave u.
Trust me k, baby. This IS gonna be urs and mine last and longest standing relationship that we ever had.
I'm adamant about that.
I'm adamant about wanting u for myself.only.
I'm adamant to make u mine no matter what it takes.
I'm adamant about loving u.

i love u.
cya soon loves
lub di doob!
P.S. guess whos being missed??? -grins-

2008-04-30T04:44:00.000-07:00

dar, i broke the keychain. i guess it was a sign. but i fixed it. metaphorically, its fixed. right? *winks

2008-04-28T03:03:00.001-07:00

not been updating regularly.too busy and caught up with assignments. they are dued so soon. which also meant the date to seeing *her agen is close by. i cant wait. these 3mths here have killed me with boredom over and over agen. grotesque food and scheduled lifestyle is much of a pain in my arse. dinner pretty much sucked today agen.
went over to a mate's place in brisane for a couple o nites stay over.had what we call "food closest to home" its nothing compared to what *she can cook and mum too. gosh i miss them all. but i miss one person the most and i do believe shes reading this now and should noe who im talkin about *winks
anyway, the weekend went well. i got my dar a couple of things. i wont brag, its not alot. i hope she likes it. thats the best bit of the whole week. shoppin for *her.
been back here since sunday afternoon.trudgin on with my assignments frm then on. what a bummer.
but *she gaf me more meaning to life than assignments. i helped *her set up her lil blog for her talent http://purplevintage.blogspot.com. its brilliant. *shes really a talent. im honoured to be with *her

darling, u have been the greatest gift anyone could have bestowed upon me. i wish for nothing more now that im with u. u satiate me. i love u.
Let me say this oath agen (in a different version :) )
I, Tendy Ching Tsi-Vei, solemly swear to love her, Joyce Tong Jing Yi for the rest of my life. In pain, in sorrow, in happiness, in joy, i will and i would stand by her. loving her and caring for her.always.
dar, i am yours now and forever.u are my special girl now, forever, always.

loves.

gosh. i do love u.

so much.

so much.

2008-04-15T04:09:00.000-07:00

this entry is for my precious lil girl.

who has currently got the pins and needles on her lil footie.

i hope this wud cheer her up.

-smiles-

15th april is nearing the end. and its midway of the month. gosh, c'mon there! pick it up with it already! any slower, i might shit my pants. Grr!

dinner was shit agen. i didnt had anything proper. had long beans, broccoli, beef stew,salad (agen with the mustard sauce. i think i smell musty already.pfft.) and mushroom soup. (speakin o which, darlin,i wana haf ur mushroom soup.*drools) and i had sum nuts(im gg nutty! -brain springs! or phaps, bolty?) anyway, i had a green apple. and yeh. thats pretty much it. its getting worse everyday. oh and my nipple is itching. -does the funny dance- can't pick on it.

well, the night's here now. its a whole new day tmr of revolting food and boring drones.

dang!

Darling, a promise to u, to make u happy.

A reason to never make u sad.

The smiles are seamless.its just perfect.

What perfectness.

How would i bear the thorns of tears in u.

I only wanna love u so.

Forever in my heart u shall stay.

days just dont end here. they go on forever. pffft.

-farts- there! day just ended.

pwah

epitome of insanity.

2008-04-14T01:57:00.000-07:00

-burps- nup, it has no intention of saying that food at dinner was good. in fact it was an outcry if it ever was. im starting to hate it here. yep. i noe. thats not like me to say that. but the fact is its boring and its like awaiting perpetual death. and the fact that i can't be with *her, its makin me disgust here even more.
Guess what i had this fine evening, beef muck,rock hard cauliflowers, salad with mustard (gawd! who eats mustard wit salad. they even took away my only choice of sauce! italian!grr!) and i had sum bloody lookin chicken. and.. yep. thats it.
I miss *her cooking so much. her rack of good ol banana walnut muffins. i miss them all. but yeh, mostly, just missing *her.
today was an extension of the weekend. got to do my report. mite start a lil studying later on (after a showr) its been a distastfefully warm day.GRR!
and yeh, i don't rckn i cud say anymore to express my disregard to this place.

i miss *her so much.
i wish time wud pass quickly.

baby, u are my personal choice
and i would never regret it.
i love u.

Gees. even the mail goes slow here... pffft.

2008-04-13T02:21:00.000-07:00

well, its a crikey day of stickin my eyes infront of the computer the whole damm day, busy tryin to fig out if elephants do have a sex life or not. and they do, by the way.

im intrigued but left bored after.pfft.

thank god for *her presence (i like the abbreviation *her; makes her special; when the fact, is she is) gosh.. the weekends seem the hardest to pass. nothing to buy time, but just awaiting for each meal. seems pretty much like a jail cell here. it is. darn, what a boring place.

sheesh-kebabs. i've got post-its stuck all over my comp abt deadlines of my assignments. and by golly, they are arranged according to the earliest deadlines. gees.im gettin nerdier as the days passes.

anyway, my dar is at her grams nw. shes gettin annoyed with perpetual old and saggy ppl. thats shitsnits. i wish im back there with her. not that i will be approved by her perpetual old and saggy ppl. even my perpetual old and saggies diss me.pwahahah.

anyway, thats how my day has-been and will-be for the next couple o months.

im made sober my her

shes like a little thing in my head.and i love it in my head.

shes my drug.

its addictive and it keeps me going.

oh.. how i love this drug.

2008-04-11T19:56:00.000-07:00

where do i start? or rather, how do i start? its 12.53pm here in the warm afternoon of Queensland Australia. and i just woke up an hour ago.yawns.and im suffering frm major boredom.pffft..
my baby,just had her 'big' carrot cake.wud it taste better if its baby carrot cake? i like baby carrots.. gees.my darling, shes the most adorable girl i have ever met. no question that i havnt seen alot of gals.but shes perfect. me and her. its just splendid.
not forgetting our lil gal fatfat.
anyway,my life in the last couple of months.have been made jaw dropping.the likes of a bustling city that goes to the wee hours of the night is turned over by a sudden drop in temperature and life ending at 4pm in the afternoon.yep. would u say is good?
Nup, maybe for the first few weeks but not now. im dying to head bk home.to see *her. to lie in *her arms. to go out in the wee hours of the night with *her.

gosh..how i miss *her so much.
i never knew i could miss sumone that much.
its true, i have fallen for her again and again.
shes just perfect for me and she perfects me.
and guess what, i cud never stop talkin to her.
i just wish, wish so much that i cud have met her earlier and not let her suffer.
i wanna love her forever.
and i noe i will.

For Your Eyes Only:
Baby, i love u so much.
and i noe u do too. i assume. -smiles-
let us walk this path, hand in hand.
come what may, i will never forgo u.
never.
i love u.

right. im done. thx for reading.
cheers.

2008-04-10T03:56:00.000-07:00

wow.i havent wrote in here for quite some time.
im a different person now. im happy. yep. its that simple.
what i perceived in the world is not all hatred(well, mostly makes up of hatred) but there is still love going around. she knows who she is. i need not mention.
what we think we might noe, may not prove to be the absolute truth unless we feel on both side of things.what i said in the past,its a single perspective.
there are many faces, facades, choices in life. do we choose to pick the first choice or do we seek further down,just to be sure.
i tried both, because i had a choice.
i guess i ought to give my thanks to fate. thats something lazy to say. "ah,leave it up to fate" its like casting all ur worries to some unknown,unsaid ; fate. but without it, there wouldnt be a choice. without it, maybe, i am still seeking in one path.hate.
but really i ought to thank a whole bunch for her.
yep.
she cured me off being in constant hate.
now,i cudnt even remember what it is to hate. -chuckles-
how silly and foolish of me. -rubs head-
now, im happy.yeh, its that simple.

2007-05-22T09:38:00.000-07:00

i believe im a dweeb. not coz i noe the meltdwns of techno-gadgets or high end PCs. but i hafn got a clue how to change my whole blog. and the reason why i am writing the load of blabberdoop.. is R_E_K_A. yep. this entry is for u and in any case to prove to all the perverted anonymous-es that i lead a boring life. so yeh, read on.
just a quick update of my current condition;
job: pet grooming assistant.
pay: bearly liveable
hours: most likely killable.
yep. to sum it up. i deal with bitches. yep. literally. stubborn ol biatches.
and YES, reka, my love. u should be honoured. for i wrote thy entry for you. of which u probably hear all those drains before.
Ayte, im outta here. this bores me. maybe i shouldnt publish it. (or maybe i shud.ah, fuck!)

images of "gold"

2007-03-01T08:36:00.001-08:00

the beauty of the smiles

of the innocent.

splendid?
sher, the angel of smiles
the devil of laughs

the city in gold.
how in awe.

if boredom is my middle name, i'd say it is an irony.gawd.

yeh, believe it, in the afternoon, i was wondering what telly progs would be on tonite. what a life. and perhaps i am creating an image of the lunch that i would have tmr. and maybe contemplating if i shud eat my dinner in one quick motion or wallow in it. well, if its mom doin the cooking, wallowing would mke me regurgitate.

seriously, im purged in my quart-life crisis. im mindfuck.. purge purge....